So I was thinking. Addictions are extremly hard to break once caught in them right? Well from my experince, whether you agree or not, there are more ways to break them then what were told by our elders. I don't know if everyone that reads this is a christian, but i'm going to relate all my opinions off of my experince with christianity regarding addiction. I've had countless chrisitians tell me that it takes SO long to break addictions like ; drugs, drinking, smoking, pornography, masturbation, fornication, gambling. 

     I was reading the book of Jonah (in the bible) Jonah finally agreed to go to Ninevah(a city) and preach against it due to their sin against God. Now Sin is stated as being rebellion against God, he has told us specificly to not do certain things like (drugs, fornication, etc) for our better interest, and the assumption is since this city is rebelling.....it's sinning, so all the citizens in the city are most likely doing all those different things and are caught in addiction.

     What christians today tell us is that like I mentioned "You must back off from this addiction. It may take months even years until it's gone". Bullcrap............huge piles of bullcrap. It's an excuse to allow sin to linger until they are "done" with it. It does not take months and months to stop fornication. It does not take years to stop gambling!

     My point for brining up Jonah ^, is that when Jonah finally went to ninevah to preach against them and tell them that God was going to destroy them in the next 40 days unless they repented, God didn't say "Jonah, tell the city that as long as they try to get out of their sin, and take months maybe even years to get out, I won't destroy them" God said "I'm giving them 30 days to repent and if they don't I'm going to have to wipe them off the map! I warned them" Now that's not an exact quote but it's his point, that's what I imagine he'd mean if I was there.

     Once the city had heard Jonah tell them the message the God wanted him to tell. they repented.......right away. They didn't say "let's try to use these last 40 days of "fun" to linger on our sins and slowly pry ourselves off them. NAY! They backed off right away from their sin and obeyed.

     So why are christians telling us today that it takes time, when we are obviously capable of stopping right away. Are we lazy? Are we so desensitized by our sin we don't realize it's serious to not stop? Whatever the cause, I choose to back off addiction right away and not let people tell me i'm stuck for awhile, when im so capable of stopping now. If you truely have the heart to stop an addiction, your capable. Don't use " my body is to addicted to stop" as an excuse, it's lazy and we're wasting time.

By the way, here is the reference to the book of Jonah, the part I was talking about

²Arise, go unto Nineveh, that great city, and preach unto it the preaching that I bid thee.

   ³So Jonah arose, and went unto Nineveh, according to the word of the LORD. Now Nineveh was an exceeding great city of three days' journey.

   ⁴And Jonah began to enter into the city a day's journey, and he cried, and said, Yet forty days, and Nineveh shall be overthrown.

   ⁵So the people of Nineveh believed God, and proclaimed a fast, and put on sackcloth, from the greatest of them even to the least of them.

   ⁶For word came unto the king of Nineveh, and he arose from his throne, and he laid his robe from him, and covered him with sackcloth, and sat in ashes.

   ⁷And he caused it to be proclaimed and published through Nineveh by the decree of the king and his nobles, saying, Let neither man nor beast, herd nor flock, taste any thing: let them not feed, nor drink water:

   ⁸But let man and beast be covered with sackcloth, and cry mightily unto God: yea, let them turn every one from his evil way, and from the violence that is in their hands.

   ⁹Who can tell if God will turn and repent, and turn away from his fierce anger, that we perish not?

   ¹⁰And God saw their works, that they turned from their evil way; and God repented of the evil, that he had said that he would do unto them; and he did it not.

later

New things arise in my "young" (as "older" people call) life. I'm gaining more ability and coordination and passing my awkwardness(most of it) behind. I apparently intimidate people(only people that don't me)

I've been picking up keyboard for a little bit now. I only know a little, but it's not that hard(but some people find it nessecary to steal my ideas anyway for their praise). Guitar is somewhat slipping. That takes alot more practice and more time to do so I don't give it alot of time. I usually play alot when i jam with Doug that's always fun.

Still looking for a job of course but I think that'll be over soon.

I'm deffinetly going to college for ASL interpreting, then as of now I'd like to save up afterwords and go back to college to study mime. but that could change

I'm done with Highschool. actually I have my last class tommorow. but that's nothing. it's more of a party thing in my class not really study. so it'll be fun but once that's over i'm done with HATS for good

I lost maybe 2 friends over this semester. and i'm losing some more slowly because they feel i'm changing for the worse.......idk I was feeling alot more confident. I thikn they just don't like it because since i don't have thier same opinions i'm messed up and not worth it anymore. Oh well, dosen't matter because they obviously wern't that good of friends if they can't except my opinions for my opinions.

I went with Anne to LCBC to make some new friends and start over. that's working out well so far. People either know me now as; shy, intimidating, moody, obnoxious, untrustworthy

it's good to start over so then maybe they can actually see the good in me besides pointing out the bad.

Anne and I have an pretty dang cool relationship(don't roll your eyes, were're dating i'm allowed to talk about this) She's an amazing girl. She always was but now sinc ei'm dating her i get to see her and completly her for what she really is. and it's even better then just being friends.

I hate the (don't talk to the opposite sex YOU"LL GET PREGNANT!) deal. Our culture teaches us that it supposedto be awkward that God wants it to be that way, that it's right. Not really. it makes everything worse and destorys uniquness and forces everyone to do the same things. uber conservative teach their children to love the same old things they do. Like old hymnals. I'm not saying to get rid of hymnals......but when you have 10-16 year old brainwashed kids come up to you and cheesily say (I love this song it's so good) you can usually tell it's because they were taught to like it. They are taught to say (I love Jesus! He is MIGHTY he is SO GOOD!) okay yeah he is....BUT do they actually think that? or are their possesive controlling parnets teaching them that? Yes children should respect and obey their parents.....but when they use the excuse(No you may not sing like that under my roof!) it's ripping away their individualism and showing complete domination over every soul in the house. Yes the fatehr is the head......and no matter how stupid they are they should follow them yes.....im not saying to disobey........but parents should have the common sense to not pull that stunt on kids. then the kids go into the real world and they arn't strong enough to handle; drinkers, porn addicts, gay, lesbians, blah blah blah. because most likely they've enver even come in contact with one because the parents won't let them because they might have some (sin disease) that'll rub off on them.

anyway,

enough ranting, i have to go to some leadership conferance thing...............for drama. all the flippin way in missouri or whatever. haha so i won't be back until monday, and jsut barely make it to my fianl graduation meeting